So yesterday I was hit with the double whammy, the dreaded fatigue and fibro fog.
From the minute I opened my eyes to when I eventually fell asleep I felt as if I was in a very restricted bubble. It exhausted me to just think, I felt like my whole body was made of lead, and nothing could penetrate the bubble. Today I barely remember anything about yesterday, conversations, what I watched etc. It’s there it is just out of my reach, that to me sometimes is what it all feels like, I know what I want to say, or do but I just can’t, it’s like a never ending corridor that your running down but never leaving.
I often get asked to describe how it feels. To be frank unless you have it you will never truly know.
Do you know how frustrating that is, that you know your intelligent, that you was active, but now you can’t move, and your thoughts and speech becomes so jumbled, so chaotic that you sound stupid, you sound like you have never been taught the English language. When you feel like you’ve just done a 10 mile hike up hill and you’ve only got up from the bed and walked to the toilet. How can anyone live like that day in and day out, I do, we do. Us warriors fight against not only these two symptoms but many many others.
So while the two F’s were attacking me with everything they had, I was in chronic pain all over, made worse by just being a woman….. Yes the dreaded monthlies. Funny thing now I used to wish I never had them, now I’d gladly just have them and you can take the fibro. At least yesterday I only had those four things attacking my body…… I’m thankful for that. I have to find the positive and hold onto those moments when it isn’t 10 or more symptoms attacking at once.
We fight everyday because we have to, it doesn’t mean though we that we have to do it alone. There are thousands of us sadly.
Today I’m resting, usually I would try and do a few chores, as the fatigue has eased. This time in listening to my body, my energy is still depleted not fatigued, there is a difference.
Final thought for the day………I stay positive because there are others much worse of than me, they are the amazing warriors. Gentle hugs to you all